for
  the man who gives the best
   butterfly kisses,
   cheek caresses,
   embraces—both physically and mentally;

Enzo!

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He's soft-spoken, and (cutely) angry sometimes, though i rarely see that side again. He is shy but he is a social butterfly. He always compliments, will never leave you unappreciated. He is very diligent and hard working. He is undoubtedly romantic. He likes to hold hands, kiss, and cuddle. He likes to skip his breakfast, though I hope he will stop. He really likes Wendy's and for once I won over Wendy's. He loves yellow. He loves kids (but he is a kid himself :p). He likes Disney! So much! He enjoys pop-ballads, and island songs.. uh do I get it right this time. He really likes that hit or miss joke, i think. He only uses cute gifs. He makes the cutest listography. He likes rain.

I love it when,

- when you arrived and we finally met
- when you keep telling me that you love me and you miss me
- when you tell me about your day
- when you smile
- when you appreciate little details
- when you're being a smooth talker
- when you update on little things on timeline
- when you used to talk in asterisks that it made me hella frustrated
- when you're being honest about your feeling
- when we hug, cuddle, and kiss
- when you watch the kids
- when you're diligently work on your stuff
- when we're both online and we get to talk, of course
- when you say " fight me " every time i tease you, or when you use that " >: (" emoji
- when you play your favorite songs during our rabbit sessions
- when you keep creating cute nicks for me
- when you leave me messages and ask how my days going
- <tba later>

^^^ 2 new messages ^^^
190315


Dear Enzo,
Hello again my loveliest! I was showering when I suddenly thought of something then I rushed to my laptop to type this out before it poofs into thin air and I'd feel empty.

Ok. You know.. This is pretty silly but,, actually I'm shy to actually talk to you. I MEAN. I know this is pretty.. how do you say it.. uh let's just say it's pretty weird. But there are times I get used to this condition: me waiting for you while leaving you messages. And when it's finally the time for you to come online, I'm getting shy as hell.. I don't even know what to say or what to do. It's like my mind is very chaotic and there's a lot of voices shouting and screaming. It's almost the same like that scene on Spongebob where mini Spongebobs working inside his brain and suddenly there are flames everywhere and they're yelling and shouting and panicking. Yeah that's pretty much of it. ARGH. I'm sorry if I sound different whenever I'm leaving you messages vs when we're actually talk in real time. Am i normal? Uh I think I am SJSJJ but I still feel bad about this And I need to let you know about this.

So how's things going today? Is everything going smoothly? Yes? But if not, you know where to find arms for you to lean on right? Please take care and stay safe! I love you a lot!

Your big teddy,
Yin.

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190313


To Enzo,
I feel so bad to actually spam you so guess who's excited to write messages here instead!! Not me! JK. Obviously it is I, your whipped boyfriend.

First of all, it's been a looong time since the last time I said this to you: I love you. Like really really love you. I can't stop thinking about you (especially when listening to songs you've recommended me before). And while thinking about you non-stop, I'm wishing that you're doing alright and safe, and most importantly, you're smiling a lot! and feel enough about yourself every day! Well, if you're asking me you're more than enough honestly. You're shining so brightly that my eyes hurt when I look at you. KIDDING. You're shining so bright that I can feel myself reflecting your light. I'm the moon and you're my sun. Ah. Wait, let me take a break from typing since my heart beats even faster while imagining you're smiling.

It's not our monthsarry.. or you can say monthly anniversary, ok no, but I feel like reminiscing on how we have been spending our days together. Oh! And I have a mini secret to tell you! But make sure you already close your windows and your door, don't let anyone know about this! Even your cousins! Okay.. are you ready? Uh, don't read this out loud either, or else i'm not telling you! Hmph. sjshsh. Okay. Uh. I keep stalking our accounts in srg... gulps. Yeah. That's my secret. It's embarrassing right. *haha*. I don't know I just... I really miss us. I miss us that bad. I miss us. Wow I can't stop typing that. I miss us. I miss the old time when I awkwardly asked you out.. out of nowhere. SWEATS. You Have to admit that it was awkward.. Me asking you out? After talking in less than a week? I wonder why you didn't tell me a single thing about that. I mean. It was weird, no? (I mean I'm so weird). BUT. I can explain this. In my defense, I'm an awkward potato And I normally can't hide my feelings.. for long. I'm shy, but it's more frustrating to hold my feelings and play hard to catch. Plus!! I really thought you liked someone other than me so gotta hurry up trying to offer a commitment (and be ready to get dumped) before my negative thoughts swallow me. Wow. It's getting weirder the fact that I just tell you this thing now. jsgshssj. I'm sorry love. I didn't think I'd write this much to be reeally honest. sighs. Seriously I came here happily thinking of telling you about the book I've told you before. But now I'm rambling about my insecurity when asking you out. O.K. I'll save the story of my reading experience later when I'm in the mood. HAHAHA.

Moving on.. I was really happy in srg. Uh I didn't remember if I've already told you before or not, but I kinda lost my mood at srg before I met you? Yeah. Long story short (and repetitive), something on you made me think: I don't want someone else to claim you >:( ok this is getting nowhere.. seriously I forgot what to tell you aside from telling you all this repetitive stuff.

Moving on.. for real this time.. we've been through a lot in 6++ months. I'm really thankful that you're still here despite your busy years in school. I can't help but being a (secretly) clingy boyfriend, since your jobless boyfriend has nothing to do aside from contemplating about this cruel world (I'm the grand grand grand grand son of Socrates). Really. Thank you for coming back to your home once in a while, telling me stories about you, letting me know about your favorites ones,, like songs, anything! Ah. I really want to know about you more! And I'm sincerely sorry for not being the best boyfriend. No no it's not that I'm not confident about the idea of you having me. I mean. You deserve me!! And me only! (:p) But, things happened. And yeah. I'm not always beside you.. when you're online. Sometimes.. (tbh Most of the time) I'm blaming our timezones. And! I'm very moody.. sometimes i could spend more time typing so fast so detailed and enthusiastic. But most of the time, too, it takes me hours to only type so short... welp. I really feel bad. I'm sorry. I mean it. But I'm improving though! I'll be a better boyfriend! I'll be the bestestest boyfriend for my bestestest boyfriend!

Oh my god I can't stop typing. Should I continue? Should I not?

Oh and hey,, sometimes.. Ok it's not sometimes.. Most of the time........ I check on your zodiac traits. HAHA. I mean. I want to win your heart more so I keep reading what libras like and don't. And. One thing I always remember is: libras always want to please others so they never actually tell what's on their mind, or when they actually do, it's on rare occasion. and... uh.. What I want to say is.. uh. If you have something on your mind, or anything.. Please, please just let me know. I'm a virgo and honestly we're pretty much the same at putting people's perspective first. But like what I've told you, I'm improving! I shall let you know about my feelings and all. Yup!

Oh god I really need to stop typing and save all the things I'm currently thinking for later. I mean. It's already too much I don't want you to get drowned on my thoughts then collapsed on the floor by the sudden letters attack. bdhsgs I love you :( Please please please don't skip your meals, and drink a lot! OH. get some enough rest every day please. I'm dating a human not a panda :( JK. Oh right, I'm sorry if I sometimes sound so senseless that it offends you. shsgsj. Ah. I love you. I really do. Thank you for all this time spent together. Soft hours for enzo: [24/7 OPENED]


From your boyfriend who's drunk in love and still have a lot to think and type of but refusing to make this evenlonger,
Yin

190302


To Enzo,
Oh...my god.... is it really our 6th month of being together? I mean, I thought it's still 3 months or something, because you know people say that on the first 3 months, a lover will still keep having butterflies in the stomach. Surprise surprise, I still have them and I believe I will always still have them whenever you're around for the longest time possible! we both might be busy from time to time but believe me; waiting to talk to you is my favorite thing to do, and to actually talk to you is my favoritest favorite thing. If that makes sense sjsj. And i'm really burdened whenever i'm away when you're here. Like whoah,, that's the worst feeling, but you'll always say "that's okay" so uhh.. yeah maybe we just haven't got the right time yet. Soon enough, we will! Regardless of any poor timing, I hope you spent your time with full of hope, cherish it feeling contented. You deserve all the happiness in the world. I love you!


Your sugarplum,
Yin.

190202


Dear Enzo,
The messages I left here are getting shorter and shorter, I'm truly sorry for my lack of words and expressions. And I realized that I'm not as expressive as others when it comes to bragging about their lover to the whole world, I'm sorry about that too.

Thank you for being the comfortable home for me, for this five months of being together. I treasure every second I spend with you. We could be both busy but the best part of this is we know where to go home and where to lay our heavy shoulders on. Thank you for loving me in your amazing way. I never felt empty with you, you make me whole and enough.


Your lame but doting boyfriend,
Yin.

190102


To Enzo,
It's been a while since the last time I posted a letter in the previous site, and today i came back with a revamped carrd (and honestly I haven't done setting things up sjsjsj). Now I'll make it short because I'm not really good at words.

I really miss you. Like really * miss you. I miss getting butterfly on my stomach (though I keep having it every time I think about you. Oh my God please tell me this doesn't sound scary), I miss hearing about how your days are going, I miss snuggling close to you, I miss spending time with you, doing something or even nothing; as long as I get to see you. I'm sorry this sounds so sad or something, I think about it again we're only not talking for like.. two days? I'm not good at math so I could be wrong, heh. Oh I nearly missed the point, happy four months for being together! I gotta remind you again that I really treasure you, your existence, your thoughts, your everything. I'm so in love with you, yes. Thank you for being here with me, I believe we will get to spend hours or even days together very very soon. I love you so bad. Happy four months!


Your boyfriend who always misses the chance to talk to you when you're online,
Yin.

181102


To Peyton,
Why is it summer rain?
You might have questioned it, but probably you have made your own assumptions, or maybe, just maybe, you just let it be unanswered and stand still as a solid title.
And let me put some words on it.

 Our meetings,
 our early to present talks, uh well,
 our whole interactions,
remind me of how excited I am to witness a rain in the middle of super humid (and sometimes boring) summer. I always wait for this magical work of nature to happen and to make me feel more enough than before.

I always love any kind of rain, be it some little rain, medium, or even the heaviest ones. Be it get accompanied by some wind, occasionally or constant loud thunders, soft or even blinding sunshine (the strangest). Just any kind of it. I simply love rain, I want to grow old memorizing any details come from it for the longest time possible.

Still, you're my favorite summer rain.

Happy second month, my precious! I will always care and wait for you. I will always be by your side. I will always adore and surely I will always love you. Thank you for this entire (on-going) ride, let's massage each other's shoulder if one of us gets weary. I love you!



Your freaky boyfriend (and a fan),

Yin.

181011


Dear Peyton's lovely parents,
Hello! We haven't met before so in this very first meeting let me introduce you that I'm Yin and I'm a proud boyfriend of your child, Peyton. I would make this short since I'm not really good at words and I probably can't stop trembling on typing this first letter to you all? Heh. Ahem. So, I'm here to thank both of you for raising the brightest child, the purest and the most soft-hearted person ever. He surely radiates positivity wherever he go, he makes sure the others to put on the smile on their face,, with the help his glowing smile of course! Also he is very adorable and lovable! You don't have to worry about how people see him whatsoever, I believe everyone's around him really enjoys his companion. He's such a blessing to me, to his friends, to the world and the whole universe. Again, I really thank you two to let the little star orbits the universe!


Yours truly,

Yin.

180924


To Renjun,
Right now things are messy inside my mind but I just want you to know that I will always be here for you to listen to every each of your stories or theories or rant (I listen to everything!), to give you lot of affection you deserve through our touch, to make you feel better and even more better, to support everything you're uncertain at, to give you accompany during your rather lonely nights, and so forth. I will be here during your ups and downs, I will be by your side. I will stay. I will tolerate. I will always love you no matter what! You might have heard about this from me but I really need to say it once more. I enjoy every second I spend with you, I treasure every memories we make together in my tiny box inside my little heart.
It's okay to doubt, it's okay to wonder. Humans are made to question and we don't quite have the power to defy it other than helping each other to strengthen each beliefs.
That was out of the blue but hey, I'm really grateful to have you by my side in this mean time. And I aspire to get to know you more and more. I'm so thirsty of every of your information, oof. Does it make me like a sasaeng, ok no.
I'm not sure when will I notify you this new message but I hope you'll feel at ease whenever, and not to have some serious drop or something. Ugh I swear I keep blabbering some nonsense but henlo I love you.


From the man who is desperately wanting you to be happy always,
Mark Lee

p.s. I didn't overthink too this time uwu

180920


To Renjun,
I don't know how many times I have ever told you but I won't stop telling you that I miss you, like so so so much. And too bad, I think I'm already getting too attached to you.. I don't know. True, we're still talking at night before you sleep, but.. I miss you so much. I miss you that much that I feel like it's beyond words.
Sike, I'm sorry for being too needy or selfish or clingy or whatever. I hope the universe finally meet us both in certain place and time, for us to talk and learn about each other more.

From the man who is literally missing you 24/7,
Mark Lee

p.s. I didn't overthink,

180918


To Renjun,
Hello, so I finally finish this stuff although I need to improve more on several details. And, welp, I miss you so so so much, and I know you do too. We've been equally busy and as if it's not bad enough, we're kind of separated by the timezone as well. Anyway, I have to thank you that you finally open up to me about your overthink? And sorry that I'm not there when you need me to comfort you, I feel very horrible about that. I honestly had the same overthinking recently that I'm afraid of stuff in the future. But nope, I won't ever stop loving you, don't worry. Although I missed a lot of chances to talk to you, I still keep unlocking the screen just to check if you're on and replying me during my leisure time, and get that butterfly on my stomach when we finally get to talk. Oh shoot I talked a lot. Oh and, I Definitely Want To Have Movie Dates With You. I won't stop hoping that the time will perfectly meet us together to have some other rabbit sessions.
By the time you check this I hope you've eaten your meals and got enough rest. Enjoy yourself throughout the day, we will talk soon I believe!
I love you a ton!


With wholehearted love,
Mark Lee

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